Oh man, here I go again!

By now, most of you must have realized that I am going through a break up.
Yes, a one year relationship with the guy who I thought would be my love forever. THere’s problem #1 .

Now now ladies/ gentleman,I want to help but also bare with me as this is very personal to my heart.

They say there are steps and books and a list of things you can do after a break up, & it’s probably true but like I said in my last post, have a 3 day mini vacation for yourself.

oh man, that urge! That want! That need! To talk to that one guy who used to be your everything!

I know ladies, it’s so easy to send a text now adays. Just remember that with every text you send, you’re just pushing him away from you. So if you WANT TO BE WANTED, he must want you enough to text you first.

NOW, if he’s not texting YOU first, &&
You just want to at least read his texts.. This is what you can do.

Leave your phone at home.
Go out for AT LEAST 6 hours,
Or just sit in your balcony go for a run
Go to the pool, go out with a friend..
Do something! Don’t just sit there waiting for that text because that means, this guy has total control over you..

Don’t ever be that girl that he can laugh at, or show his friends and say “she’s so annoying she texts me all the time” .. Yes this does happen. Be the girl that he can say, ” man we broke up and she’s just taking this lightly, maybe I was wrong about her” .. This, MIGHT happen.

I’m giving you little pointers on how to help your life, or if you just think about him, WRITE ABOUT HOW NOT TO TEXT HIM. But that’s just me lol

Thank you guys. Gooood night.


Late night Post

“Smash Into You”

Head down
As I watch my feet take turns hitting the ground
Eyes shut
I find myself in love racing the Earth
And I’m soaked in your love
And love was right in my path, in my grasp
And me and you belong
I wanna run.. Run..
Smash into you

Ears closed
What I hear no one else has to know
Cause’ I know
That what we have is worth first place in gold
And I’m soaked in your love
And love is right in my path, in my grasp
And me and you belong, oh…

I wanna run (run)
Smash into you
I wanna run (run)
Smash into you

Head down
As I watch my feet take turns hitting the ground
Eyes shut
I’m in love and I’m racing the Earth
And I’m soaked in your love
And love is right in my path, in my grasp
And me and you belong
Oh…I wanna run
Smash into you
I’m willing to run (run)
Smash into you
I’m willing to run, run, run, run, ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
I’m willing to run, run, run, run, ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
I wanna run, run
Smash into you
I’m willing to run (run)
Smash into you

A song a day. 


Up all night

What makes a girl or a guy lack sleep more than anything? Breakups, worries, stress, the excruciating tooth pain, or maybe leg twitches?

I wish there was a pill for every single item on that list, but for the ones that are not an easy fix.. Let me help you.

Doesn’t that phrase just SUCK? Why couldn’t the end of a relationship be called something more pleasant like, ‘freedom time’ or ‘happy place’.. Regardless, I guess the phrase would only matter when both parties are okay with the break-up. However, when one person ends a relationship, it’s hard for the opposite party to deal. Now, if you are the ‘ender’ don’t feel guilty, it’s always better to be honest with the other person but yourself most importantly.

NOW ; with that said.
First off, I’m sorry that for whatever reason the relationship didn’t work out.

The first thing to do is to PROCESS what just happened. A relationship no matter how long is a special part of your life. Remember that it is the end of a part in your life, however; that doesn’t mean that it’s always bad.

Think about the reason of the break up, and put yourself in the shoes of the other person & realize that if that was you, YOU would want them to understand & hopefully one day be friends.

Don’t blame yourself.
Don’t blame yourself.
Don’t blame yourself.
Don’t blame yourself.

I can’t stress that enough. A relationship is between 2 people & if it didn’t work out, it was not just your fault & if the other person can’t assume responsibility, you’re better off, honey!

Cry. Scream. Sleep.movies. Eat. Chocolate. Carbs. Run. Box. Punch. Forgive. Understand. Realize. Smile.

In 3 days, you need to get all of the pity out. Anything more is unacceptable, think of yourself before anyone else. Stop wasting time with this person. It’s time to love yourself more than them.


Tell ONE friend.
That’s it, tell your very best friend, wether it’s your mom, your sister your dog, a childhood friend. Anyone, but only one. Don’t let their opinion affect the decision, just take the comfort of releasing the truth. After you think you are ready to go out, DO IT.
Take all offers from friends.
Say yes to the world!
Focus on yourself!
Go back to school
Climb a Mountain
Beat you mile by 1 minute
Lose weight!
Gain confidence
Finish everything you once didn’t.

& just like that, like a snap,
Like a sudden blink, like a reflection, this sadness is gone.

Remember ;

When we long for life without difficulties, remind us that oaks grow strong in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure

20 seconds

“Sometimes all you need is 20 seconds, 20 seconds of embarrassing bravery & trust me something great will happen”

So I’m watching “We bought a zoo” & somehow this quote took over me & quickly. Maybe this could be right? Could 20 seconds change your life.. Increase your boldness? change your perspective? I wish I was braver than I am to go ahead and try this.. But I’m such a chicken. I guess one day I’ll know. You can only find out when you try right? Hope you guys have the guts to do this!

Up all night

I had quite a night. I couldn’t sleep, I thought of a million and one ways to put myself to sleep but sometimes the want is more powerful than the need.

I began a scavenger hunt for my past pictures, i found a million old pictures, some pretty sweet some are just seriously funny.

I found pictures of my childhood dogs, birds, I never knew I had a toucan, as well of pictures of old boyfriends, friends that look like babies, and now.. They HAVE babies.. It was a weird experience!

Sometimes I wonder about how much I miss those times. When I had absolutely no worries, no stress, no obligations, no responsibilities, nothing.

Then I remember that I absolutely love my life, the flaws, the good the bad, the ugly the beautiful, perfectly imperfect.

I learned a wonderful lesson last night as I closed my laptop;

I’ve come so far & grown so much, & that’s a gift that not even time can take away.

The year of the survivors!

Hello 2013, hello to all who made it through another year of constant struggle and pain as well as some beauty! Now now, dont call me a pessimist, i must speak reasonably and from experience.

I have learned a couple of things this year, and well, i wanted to share. 

Hey once a year doesn’t hurt!

This year; like every year, i have lost and made friends, lost a lot of things but gained so much more. This year has taught me to be a fighter, to keep my head held high through all the chaos and struggles. 

Some tips ;

DONT hesitate. Do it, there is a reason that this opportunity has come your way (unless it’s taking candy from a stranger, or getting into a stranger’s van) 

We grow up with the idea of being so sheltered and so careful to get hurt that we’re never taught what to do when it happens. Sometimes, getting hurt is good, i may sound crazy YES! but seriously, it’s a reminder that we’re only humans and we are allowed to make mistakes, making mistakes isnt bad either, we’re all humans! nobody’s perfect! 

Learn to forgive.. mostly yourself 

Now i can go ahead for hours and rant about what that means, but this goes for anybody in need of some comforting. Hey, we mess up sometimes. We cannot go out into the world apologizing to a million and one people when we cannot even forgive ourselves. i believe that’s the problem with society, we care too much about other people and too little about ourselves.THERE IS NOBODY IN THE WORLD MORE IMPORTANT THAN YOU, you know why i say that? because everyone is capable of hurting you (yes, even your mom) so at the end of the day, dont block your heart just shelter it, and love it and breathe! love yourself a little more, lose those extra pounds, spend on that expensive dress, buy the best food, visit the most beautiful places, and treat yourself like royalty, because people notice when you like yourself.. they really notice.


Now, love life.

I’m no expert in love life, i have had some very beautiful relationships and i have had some terrible relationships. The word “survivor” couldnt apply more than on this topic! Being in love, falling in love, or not, is one of the hardest things to do in life. This year i hope to see some strong woman come out of it. i want to see woman, in love, in a healthy relationship, who love themselves enough to love someone else fully.

The problem with woman nowadays is that they are too available, get upset if you want to but that is the truth, and honestly to anyone getting upset.. you’re probably one of them. This world has come to a scary point, where girls can have kids at 15 and parents are okay with it, and where children are going out all night without parental permission nor consequences, what is the beauty in that? Women, need to be better example to your children, to your siblings. Men like a woman who is smart, and can hold their own. Independence is key lady, you do not need a man to pay for your lunch all the time, that’s why you work. This topic is extremely touchy, but ill go into it anyway. Sometime, we sit and complain about how a men gets paid more than a women, and how we do not have equal rights and dadadada. Equal rights, well, why do we still expect men to act like in the old days, where they pay everything and do everything, Is that really fair? They’re allowed to pay for everything, but you who want to be treated differently follow the same old tactics, that will never solve this! Love is difficult, yes but is it worth is? absolutely so find a way to love yourself and be okay with yourself before you go and love someone else. 


And that is all i got today, thank you followers!

Thank you strangers, come back and browse!


Seeing the light

Drifting by in life, i realized that i never really truly took care of my life and my emotions,

the more i think about it the less I’m able to share. 

I have turned down many opportunities,

yet i’ve chased so many mistakes.

What makes it okay to settle for anyone, anything, ever? 

Let me open your eyes, i don’t ask for much… 

How many times have you given your total and undivided attention to a task?

you finish it and then realize how completely unimportant it is to the world?


We are taught to think that we have to work hard to be someone in life,

and the truth is;

we don’t.


We have all the necessary tools to be the most successful, important and interesting people. All we need to do is pay attention to the people who we let in our lives, and the decisions we make.

What’s the difference between you and Oprah? 

Money you say? … well she has two arms, two legs, two eyes, one heart, two ears.

And you? The only thing stopping you is yourself.

Consider how hard it is to make a glass table, and how easily it is broken. 

However shattered we are, we must make ourselves believe.

The power of thought is amazing, consider that everything

that you use was once an idea, nothing was just there..

Everything.. your laptop.. your phone.. your ELECTRICITY.

Its your life, you run it.

Don’t ever blame someone else for your failure because, there is no excuse.

Don’t be scared of being the only shadow you see on the wall.